I wonder if she allowed herself to think,
Of the balloons doused in pink,
Of the presents and gifts,
For the the occasions missed.
I let my mind wander,
Just a little longer,
To the idea and dream,
That love is what she means.
My first birth without her,
I hear the song she would mumur.
The ‘happy birthday’ filled with regret.
The fear that I never once met.
I miss her today.
On my birthday.
My mother is absent.
With her my family went.
I wonder if she thought of her first,
I could think of nothing worse.
Than for her to have so willingly forgotten,
The daughter who missed her rotten.